Thursday, 30 October 2014

Eddie Amador - House Music (Uto Karem Remix)

Holy Cunt!! 

Can you believe it? 2014 marks the 20th birthday of Yoshitoshi, the seminal record label founded by Sharam and Dubfire AKA Deep Dish in 1994. To start the celebrations they have re-released one of my favourite tracks from the late 90s! Along with the remastered original the package includes remixes by Uto Karem, Robosonic & Anthony Attalla with more remixes to come in the coming weeks.

Robert Babicz - Mercury Bells (beta v3)

I like sharing new stuff with people, and this is as new as it gets - this is just majestic from Babicz, looking forward to getting my hands on this gem soon!

A Thought On Migrants...

Tuesday, 28 October 2014

This Despicable Government

Evening all,

I was going to write tonight about some positive thoughts about my life and what I have got to look forward to doing over the coming weeks and months. Alas, I'm angry, but not with friends or family or colleagues but our delightful and pleasant government.

It seems that Call Me Dave has decided to go tow to tow with Farage and try to out-UKIP UKIP, almost in a race to the bottom of the fucking barrel. Glorious...

In what I suspect is a crude and somewhat sadistically calculated move - the government has decided not to continue to support attempts to prevent migrants from being harmed when they try to get into Europe from North Africa.

Human rights organisations have raised fears that more migrants and refugees will die in their attempt to reach Europe from the north African coast. The hard-pressed Italian navy will be left to mount what search-and-rescue operations it can. The new European operation will have only a third of the resources of the Italian operation that is being phased out. The Italian government got some €30m in support for the Mare Nostrum operation ever since the Lampedusa tragedy last year when 500 migrants died trying to get to Europe. That was in one single crossing. ONE.

How can a government basically say that the lives of those who are not born in the West are inferior and less important than those who are. These 'unwanted' economic migrants are people, Dave. They are brothers, sisters, mothers, fathers. They are not shit to be scraped off the bottom of your Kurt Giegers...

Absolutely fucking despicable.

Location:Coolinge Road,Folkestone,United Kingdom

Barbara Tucker - Everybody Dance (The Horn Song)

One last tune for this evening - and its a classic - one of my all time favourites - this will be getting caned come NYE I suspect!

Sokos & Pyrodox - Bad Habit (Original Mix)


Guy J - Once In A Blue Moon (Original Mix)

This is so beautiful - on Bedrock this is the mighty Guy J!

Prok & Fitch And Rene Amesz - Keep On (Original Mix)

Loving this right now!

Adrian Hour - Make You Feel Good (Original Mix)

Early Signs of '33...

Monday, 27 October 2014

The Aloof - One Night Stand


In A Rut

Good evening,

Really hard and difficult day at work today. It's really difficult to be working at the moment with so much on my mind and being able to perform and give a service to customers, without any thoughts of negativity and doubt of myself and my abilities. It's also really pissing me off that this is a constant mood right now, without any sign of any light at the end of the tunnel.

I have to be patient with myself and try to give myself a bit more TLC. Difficult for me to be able to do that in such an demanding job but it needs to be done for me to be able to cope right now.

Snapped at my boss at work over the smallest thing which could have escalated but thankfully didn't. People are worried about me right now, strangest thing of all is I'm almost beyond the point of not caring anymore - waiting for the inevitable to happen.

Whether it's a day, a week, a month, a year or a decade - I've convinced myself that I will take my own life - because there is no way that I can continue to cope with the absurd amount of stress that I put myself under on a daily basis - that will scare people, but I've settled myself with that thought, when the time comes - we'd be ready to do what's needed.

It doesn't feel like the beginning of the end, not even close, but the mood is changing in such a way that - that is more disturbing to me than any thoughts I have had of suicide. All people want is a sense of peace.

Not much to ask.

Sunday, 26 October 2014

Best Of Buddies


I'm some what fucking shitfaced after an very heavy night in Das Kapital for the old man's 40th - quite a few stories have come out in the last 24 hours that I'd like to talk about this morning - in particular regarding those cuddly cunts from UKIP - who I have seen in the last day or so been getting all fucking paddy with those equally adorable fuckwits of Britain First - yep that's right children, UKIP are getting friendly with an font of the BNP, EDL and poxy National counting Front. There are pictures resonating from Rochester of these equally undesirable fuckers having selfies and pictures taken with each other.

Now, it's quite possible that these cunts just bumped into each other and thought it would be nice and courteous to exchange pleasantries - but actually having your photo taken with the knuckle dragging super cunts of the right must make people question whether UKIP are wanting to be a party of the people, or are they trying to go down the 1933 route - basically, spread fear and hate amongst an indigenous population against minorities, the persecuted and the vulnerable, play on people's worse fears and prejudices and then whack - before you know it - Farage will be High Chancellor. Unlikely, but still...

Farage has said time and time again that he is the leader of a party which are not the establishment - not funded or influenced by certain interests - but surely that's a crock of shit! The MP they have got in the commons was previously an Tory in the same fucking seat - the cunt that is standing in Rochester and Strood is a Tory turncoat - they have been financed by former Tory donors - shit, they've even had a has-been (or is that, never-been?) DJ, record an dreadful absurd song - in an Jamaican accent. This being the same twat who was so against Relax by Frankie Goes To Hollywood, that he performed a record breaking (that's vinyl, to you kids) ritual of said song on his Radio 1 show in 1984. Bonkers.

Now, you may decide to see this rant as pretty standard for someone like myself - but that is besides the point. This party has openly said that it wants to be different from other political parties, but that is just not possible when you're just the same cunts, with a slightly different hue of shit instead of the Tory blue.

And if you do think that, then you're a fucking twat.

Saturday, 25 October 2014

Wednesday, 22 October 2014

More Questions Than Answers..

Evening all,

Had my second therapy session this evening, think I expressed myself quite well this week instead of being pensive like I had been last week, there are a awful lot of questions that I need to get out of my system. One of which being why am I'm so fucking analytical?

There are a number of reasons I suspect, one of which goes back to the time of the court case regarding the abuse. I had to watch myself being interviewed by the Police on the Isle of Wight after I disclosed that I had been violated by that bastard.  

I remember that day oh so fucking well. It was fucking dreadful! Probably the reason why I hate that 'How Bizarre' tune by OMC - as it was high in the pissing charts back then and my headteacher drove me from Sandown where I had been at the local high school doing science towards my GCSE - we headed to this centre on the outskirts of Newport, the county town of the Island - where we were met by the DC who dealt with such cases for the Hampshire constabulary back then. 

For what seemed like an eternity but was probably only four or five hours, I explained what had happened, piece by excruciating piece - breaking down on numerous occasions as I struggled to contain my emotions, but fuck I'm 14 years old at the time - so much was happening so quickly it was frightening. 

Before I knew it we were at the Police station in Newport town centre, where 
I was examined for any internal injuries, there had definitely been some interference in that area. And then it was done...

Anyway, back to the day of the court case, we watched back the interview from that cold December day and then the defence lawyer got to work on me. He ripped me to shreds, it was like I was a cunting ragdoll for him to play with, abuse almost. 

Two days later, the bastard got off. He's probably dead by now, even if the cunt had got sent down he would have been out in two years if that. It's always a worse sentence for the victims. Not only are you violated, but you're given a life sentence of images, flashbacks and feelings that remind you of those moments. 

And there is fuck all you can do, but bear it. 

The Wider Story About Rochdale...


I must apologise for writing a hell of a lit about my experiences of abuse as a child and the wider issues that have come up as a direct consequence of what happened to me all those years ago. However, one story has come out today which has genuinely angered me. 

The Guardian are reporting today that one of the taxi firms implicated in the recent grooming scandal in Rochdale have got a policy of accepting customers' requests for 'local' drivers. 

Or in other words, White Drivers. 

Race relations have reportedly deteriorated since the scandal came out in 2012 and that was shown by UKIP's showing at the recent Heywood and Middleton by-election - we have to work together to prevent the fascist slime from capitalising on the abuse scandal. 

Those people would do well to remember that Savile, Harris, Clifford and Lee- Travis were all White. 

Sexual abuse does not discriminate on race or religion. 

The Halloween Costume To Have...

Well having Ebola is pretty fucking nightmarish, so the suits probably would go down a storm at some douchebag's party this Halloween night. 

Think I'll stick to my Uncle Fester number. 

Another Day, Another Bedtime

It's so late that it's morning!

I had a difficult couple of days. I'm not going to digress what has been on my mind, however it's not been music and it's not been work, however I have started to do some studio mixes for one of the bars in town as they wish to cut down on costs right now. 

See unlike London the economy elsewhere in the country is fucked. 

Taking a week off from the booth this weekend as we are heading to London for the Old Man's 40th birthday. Taking in El Clasico, and then heading to XOYO to see the mighty Simian Mobile Disco in action, whilst staying in Swanky Hampsted in one of those cute suites up there! Plenty of Jäger, Sambuca and Vodka will be consumed of course!!

Tuesday, 21 October 2014

Strike - I Have Peace

From the crew who gave the world 'U Sure Do' - remember hearing this whilst at school on the Isle of Wight back in 1997, think it was on one of those Club Anthems albums from back then!!

Orbital - Halycon On and On

In honour of the news today that Orbital is to split up again - thought that this would be a truly appropriate track to put up for you today!

A track that I love to play at the start of a classics set - certainly one that I'll be playing on NYE for definite!!!

Sunday, 19 October 2014

Wow. Just Wow.


Just So You Know Who's In Charge.


Lemon Jelly - In The Bath


Zero 7 - Give It Away



The Weekend's Gone...


Been quite a good weekend for me if I'm honest! Hammered Skuba on Friday night with my usual blend of old skool anthems and upfront cuts, and got rave reviews from the punters which is what really matters at the end of the day isn't it. Last night on the other hand didn't happen the way I was expecting! We got a call from the bar about midday on Saturday saying that they didn't want anyone to play there last night. So we went to Skuba to hang out with my boys and played solid House all evening long. Cannot complain with that!!

We take a break from the booth for a few weeks as we're heading to London on Saturday morning for one of the usual suspects' 40th birthday and going to seeing the mighty Simian Mobile Disco at XOXO so that should be entertaining and costly to the liver no doubt!

B xx

Wednesday, 15 October 2014

One Last Thought...

The thoughts of novelist, John Grisham who complains that America is wrongly jailing far too many people for viewing child pornography - he says..

It's not porn, it's rape you fucked up sadist.

Heads up to the campaigner @mwilliamsthomas on Twitter


Talking Aloud


Had my first session of therapy this evening which was a serious eye opener, there seems to be a awful lot that myself and the therapist are going to have to get through over the next eight weeks. There's no doubt that we're not going to get to the bottom of my issues however I am somewhat hopeful that we may start to unearth what is causing my anxiety, depression and everything that comes with it and how to combat it.

Am I'm happy that I've started this process, of course we are. There is an aspect that concerns me and that is the realisation of having to face up to the fact that what happened to me cannot be reversed. Simple as that. The therapist said that perhaps CBT therapy may not be the way forward and perhaps more of a psychoanalytical process may be more suitable due to my background. So, it is said that CBT does not take into account the sexual abuse such as I what experienced all those years back, and in some instances it can make the original condition much worse.


One of the big issues is to stop it controlling my life, and having such a detrimental effect on my way of living. Easy to say I know, but that is the bottom line, it would be such a kick in the googlies to those who've supported me through thick and thin if I decided to finish it off. The abuse ended almost 20 years ago and still it's having an overwhelming influence on my life.

I said to the therapist that the victims of crime always get a life sentence. Regardless of the crime. And it's so true. Criminals who cover their tracks can get off scot free if they are clever, victims have to live with the consequences ad infinitum.

Anyway, enough moping around for one evening!

Bakermat - One Day (Vandaag) (Oliver $ & Matthew K Remix)

So good, yet so underused - will be hammering this on Friday @ Skuba!!!

Gabriel Ben - Detroit 500 - Original Mix

Oh my! This is fucking superb tech from Toolroom!

The Orange Theme - Cygnus X (Moonman's Orange Juice Mix)

In a proper Trance mood this evening as you can probably imagine, reliving some of my favourite tunes from that time - here's another with the Remix coming from Moonman (AKA Ferry Corsten)!

Storm - Storm (Club Mix)

Still gives me goosebumps when I hear this in my headphones, cueing up, ready to unleash it on the crowd!

Lustral - Everytime (Way Out West's Sunrise Remix)

Historic, Emotional, Incredible.

Smell it, Feel it, Hear it.

Yep That's Me!!

Start my course of therapy imminently and saw this photo online, so thought I'd share it with you! 

People go through this cycle on a constant and daily basis and it hurts. 

A Tory's Opinion On The Disabled.

Psychopathic Profile..


Look for a lack of empathy. Psychopaths are callous and have no way of relating to non-psychopaths. 

Kudos to @Avitusparta on Twitter. 


The old adage that exercise does curb negative thoughts may well be true.  I say that because Monday night I went to the gym for half hour and felt pretty rubbish all of yesterday, went to the gym for a full hour on Sunday and last night and feel much better today and I certainly did on Monday.  So, is it the fact that more exercise does make for a more serene mind than not.  I must admit that when I was in a similar hole some years ago that exercising five times a week for an hour a day did help a lot - but I also think that as I lost weight my confidence grew as a direct consequence so going to the gym was having some definitive results as I could see them physically. 

Tuesday, 14 October 2014

In The Mind Of A Trick Or Treater...

Heads up to @AdamDoDaDay on Twitter for the image!

John O'Callaghan feat. Josie - Out Of Nowhere (Stoneface and Terminal Vo...

A bit of a Trancer for the last song this evening - fucking loved this when it came out a few years ago!

16 Bit Lolitas - Nobody Seems To Care

Been a fan of these guys for a good seven years or so, remembering getting Feel I'm Falling on CR2 vinyl when I had my 1210s all those years back - this was on the first Anjunadeep mix think back in 2008 - absolutely beautiful intro me thinks!

Riva Starr - Just You & Me

Really love the groove on this - infectious!

16 Bit Lolitas - Deep In My Soul

Oh My Fucking God!!!

Coming soon to a tap near you...

Ah, yes - courtesy of Fracking. Check the link for more details...

St Germain - Rose Rouge (Joris Voorn Secret Mix)

Probably the closest thing I've heard this year that is the audio version of Porn.

When You're Having A Bad Day...

Don't fucking ask! Absolutely shattered from Eon turning up late last night with the gas meter battery conking out, and generally fucked off with all things to do with life right now. 


The Enemy Within...



Kosheen - Hungry (Satoshi Tomiie Vocal Mix)


The original is special, but this from the Japanese Wizard takes things up to an whole different level. Perfect for a Tuesday morning.

Monday, 13 October 2014

Traktor S8 - Yay or Nay?

I was extremely excited to see the reports of the S8 coming out and now the images are out and the videos have shown what it can do - some thoughts.

No jog wheels. Which makes me think that this is an mashup of Maschine, the F1 and the Mark 2 X1. Is this going to be for those of us who are using the S4 right now, I suspect it isn't. I think it's going to be used predominantly by DJs such as MK who use the above in their sets right now - it'll be interesting to see what is heard at Fabric tonight where Terry Francis and Davide Squillaci have been premiering the S8 to punters.

Would I get it, probably not immediately, I'm going to be needing convincing that the lack of jog wheels is a positive step, several of my fellow DJs down here are of a similar opinion, one of the very essences of DJing is the ability to be able to scratch - and although I can barely do it, it is an ability that cannot be faked by effects or samples.

What this is however, is an evolution in DJing, just like the Numark NV is for Serato. For Traktor users like myself though, the ever increasing rumours regarding a Traktor software update makes some think that perhaps the S8 is the start of an new evolution of Traktor from NI.

Amtrac - Those Days

Liking this right now!

In Memoriam - Mark Bell


Have to report the very sad and untimely passing of LFO's Mark Bell. Bell was one of electronic music true pioneers and was also responsible for Bjork's seminal Homogenic album. He also had an hand in Depeche Mode's 2001 Exciter album.

Condolences go to all of Mark's family and friends at this sad time.

Culoe De Song - Y.O.U.D. (Original Mix)

Lovely tune this - on Innervisions right now!

Back Into The Groove..


Was back at work this morning, still the same messed up fuck that I was two weeks ago when I left there in an absolute fucking mess and still there is a certain sense of pride that I got through what was a pretty deep and personal crisis. Even then though I was nervous with the reaction from people, If only people knew just how bad things had got. As it was, it was like I had never been away, not a bad thing that. No fuss. Like that. 

Fuck. Is that what my life has become - one of troughs and sheer frustration - sprinkled with Euphoric highs. Don't know whether that is what I'm looking for, fuck I know that's not what I'm wanting right now nor ever. But still could be worse. 

Got an meet up with my DJ boss this evening so better get the gym out of the way before then!

Primal Scream - Come Together

The end of Monday. Thank fuck for that!!!

Typical Politicians..

Recognise Palestine!

Today should be an historic day for this country, in the Houses of Parliament this evening, the Commons will vote on whether Britain should recognise Palestine as an independent state.

There is no reason at all for the UK not to recognise Palestine.

I urge you all who come on here to email your MP via here.

Thank You.


Badly Drawn Boy - The Shining



Wonderful song, Lovely words.

Perfect for a Monday morning.

Sunday, 12 October 2014

Daily Mail Readers Thoughts on Malala..

Brace yourself, it ain't pretty. 

Back To The Grinder...

Evening Fuckwits!

Off back to work tomorrow morning after my time away from there and on the whole it has been needed - as I said last night, I'm due to start my CBT therapy on Wednesday and so there is something that I can look forward to in a way. Of course I'm a bit nervous to see how it's going to work, but what has to be done, needs to be done as I do not want to have to be needing to take any more fucking time off due to this fucking illness.

Simple as that.

Nighty Night!

Luky - Ordem

This is out on Infinity right now and has been played by none other than Marco Carola - have a gander!

Sam Paganini - White (Original Mix)

Enjoying this from Drumcode right now, this is from his first studio album titled 'Satellite'. Brutal drums these!

Beautiful! UKIP Put In Their Place...

Have just seen this fantastic picture which has surfaced on Twitter this evening - it's the front of a shop in Rochester where UKIP are hoping to be taking their second Parliamentary seat from the Tories.

Kudos to @chunkymark on Twitter for this.


Solu Music - Fade (Grant Nelson Remix - Wes Clarke Re-Edit)

This was released on Hed Kandi's Disco Heaven album in April 2006 - the Grant Nelson remix is classed as one of the all time classic funky house tracks, the intro edit by Wes Clarke makes it a beautiful track to kick off a Peak time set! Enjoy!


Tito Wun - The Way U Do It (Jacques Renault Edit)

Back to the here and now, Well sort of...

It was originally released back in the early part of 2013, this edit from Washington DC's Jacques Renault fuses those warm, vintage sounds of radio frequencies - almost giving out that 60s feel, with frenetic kicks and hi hats, definitely one track to be played out in next week's early set at Skuba for definite!

Crustation - Purple (A Tribe Called Quest Remix)