Wednesday, 20 May 2015

Loneliness Is The Elephant

Well, this is fucking bullshit isn't it. I genuinely do not have a fucking clue how the fuck we get out of this state of mind right now. Life seems to be going alright at the moment - but it just feels that it can just go fucking to shit at any moment. Probably how everyone feels right now.

The thing that truly upsets me is that I feel so low and lonely at times at the moment, and I feel that I can't show that to anyone - whether that is friends or family because they've dealt with it for so long. Almost like I'm suppressing it at the moment with nowhere for it to go. Loneliness isn't just being on your own for long durations of time to me, for me it is having a completely different mindset to everyone. Whether that is in a room, train - whatever.

Not having the same feelings and thoughts as everyone around you at that time is loneliness. Now imagine having that on a constant basis. Exactly. Not pretty.

I'm in bed right now, listening to some supposedly relaxing music trying to get my thoughts down - as that is the one way I know how to express myself without resorting to drink or drugs. Because that does fuck all to help doesn't it!

Tried to sort out an appointment with the doctors for after work today. They asked whether it was a emergency. What the fuck is a emergency? Is it a case of life and death? No, not at the moment, but give it a couple more months of feeling like this, and then who knows. Thought in the end fuck it. Just try and get on with it. The gym seems to be helping with getting my anger and shit out of me at the moment, back to doing five, one hour sessions a week for the first time for some years so - can only be a positive - and if that can help me lose a few pounds around the spare tyre, then all the better.

Anyway, got my first wedding gig of the summer coming up on Saturday, decent earner and all that - so may decide to do a spot of retail therapy come Sunday. How exciting!

Nighty Night!!


Monday, 18 May 2015

Technasia - Obsession (Hombre Lowdown's French Kissed Edit)

Have enjoyed playing this a lot recently!! Included in my new promo which I've put up on Mixcloud this evening n

Saturday, 16 May 2015

The Grid - Floatation

Completely different and off the beaten track away from their epic hit 'Swamp Thing' - listened to this with my new Beats Solos this morning - and couldn't help but appreciate how good a tune and how ahead of its time it really was considering its 25 years since it was originally released.

Killing In The Name Of The State


Obviously, we have had the announcement that the surviving individual who perpetrated the sickening attack on the Boston Marathon has been sentenced to death - the fact that he has been sentenced to death shouldn't be a surprise to anyone - the crime was an affront to human decency and all we care about. I don't want to get into the intricacies of the case, but the question must be asked, is it right for the state to be carrying out such judicial acts?

Let me state my position on capital punishment from the outset. I'm very much against the motion, that it is the ultimate tool that the criminal system can offer - it isn't. It is for some a way out for those who carry out such senseless acts - and far from it being the ultimate tool, it is what these killers want to happen, so they can become martyrs for their cause. It is not in society's interest for there to be such individuals to be warpingly looked up to by others who might carry out similar attacks in the future.

An eye for an eye.

No matter how much humanity progresses we're still positively medieval at times.

Sunday, 10 May 2015

The Aftermath.


I've thought long and hard over the last few days regarding the unexpected election result. There have been many articles and posts across the internet concerning where it all went wrong for Labour and for the parties on the Left of the political spectrum, where I place myself - some have been very thoughtful - others have been nothing short of sniping from the sidelines, see Mandelson on the Marr show this morning. I also see that the War Criminal, Blair has been sprouting off his Neo-Liberal claptrap nonsense in the papers today - again, I will not be lectured to on compassion by a man who started an unjust war on fabricated evidence. Did you feel any compassion for the thousands of innocents who died for your despotic and shambolic crusade Tony? No you didn't. 

However, I have to get something off my chest which has been properly pissing me off over these past few days - Let's put some facts on the table. The Tories didn't win anything. They got under 37% of the vote, 25% of the electorate. Labour shouldn't have to adapt their policies to fit in with what they think people want. They should fight for what they believe in and if that's democracy then proportional representation should be a top priority. It's an scandal that UKIP and the Greens with five million votes have two MPs. How can we call ourselves a democracy when five million votes result in just two fucking MPs?

People criticise others for protesting on the streets of London yesterday and there is no excuse AT ALL for some to deface the women's War memorial on Whitehall, but you have to ask the question, if a substantial proportion of the electorate are that disaffected by democracy that the only option they feel they have is to march and protest to get their voice across, just what on earth is going to happen when a couple of years of savage cuts have been implemented by this government.  It is offensive to me that the Tories believe however well the economy is doing that money shouldn't be spent on services that can play a big role in the economic advancement of those at the bottom. Austerity quite clearly disproportionately affects the poor and needy as they benefit from public services that are cut the most. It is not as if to argue against austerity is economic illiterate when that article suggests that there is much debate from economists around the benefit it has. People will say that they're alright jack, but isn't that one of the fundamental rules of humanity - look after those around you who can't look after themselves for one reason or another. 

Have we as a society just stopped caring about those around us?  Of course not, I have spoken to plenty of people these past few days who are as disheartened and frustrated by the electorate's verdict on five years of ConDemNation, but the reaction is not to be vindictive to your family, friends and neighbours purely because of who they voted for. That's doing the Tories job for them. 

The divide and rule tactic employed by Cameron, and perpetuated by the Tory media, such as the S*n, Times, Torygraph, Daily Heil and Express worked spectacularly - and Cameron knows it. 

There is now just the small issue of getting the union back together, which in my opinion is probably beyond repair. Gonna need to explain that one to Her Maj, Dave.

Saturday, 2 May 2015

Après - Chicago

Love this right now - not out on iTunes for another month or so - but has been available on Beatport for the last month - love that euphoric feel that the track gives out!