Wednesday, 28 January 2015


One thing that really gets me at times is how I can be some despondent around other people who are so happy - its like that for me this morning - and no its not because the Redmen lost last night - its been the case for the last few days - and it is very frustrating for me to feel on the outside looking in at times like now.
It does feel at times that I'm cocooned in some depressive bubble surrounded by lots and lots of happy people - the depressive nature of this does mean that we are at times so quiet at work, that people forget I'm even there - which is probably how I like it.  
However, having this state of mind has had in the past - and continues to have its knock on effects - not hitting the level of performance in my day job is causing me to stagnate in my current job role - whilst newcomers seem to just fly by me with their sky-high confidence, verve and zeal - perhaps its my age in comparision to these newbies - but I just can't compete with them with me the way I am at the moment.
All I want to be at times is in my bed - surfing on my iPad - looking for new music - that's all.
At least that way I'm not hurting any one anymore, apart from myself.

Tuesday, 27 January 2015

Enough Is Enough

Had a productive evening last night - finished off my Remix for Brodanse's Train Of Thought's contest on beatport - of which I will send a link to you all to listen to - its very deep, chilled almost melancholy in tone and mood - which summed up how I was feeling at the time of writing the track - it's had 16 plays at the time of writing this - but it did feel very thereputic to produce - and to take the track - which has that Tech House monster feel to it into something a lot more deeper and subtle - and although I've uploaded the track to Beatport as it needs to be in by the 2nd - I will do some more into it - add some more layers into the mix - before using the iZotope Ozone 6 module to master it into the final mix.
Went on to start another remix but the start of the evening was not as productive as I would have liked. I went to the gym, and that went as per normal, however I had found myself getting quite tearful earlier in the day at work, on the way and back from the gym - so much so that by time I got home, I just broke down in floods of tears.  This concerns me greatly.  I have not been in the best states of mind for a few weeks - but still - for that to happen when it did last night is a huge blow for me.

Monday, 26 January 2015

Surrounded By Emptiness

I feel like someone who is on his own right now - surrounded by people, but absolutely oblivious to the suffering that I'm going through right now.  Whilst in the office, people are talking about their holidays, doing their driving licenses, saving for a house etc - I just don't see the point of doing or preparing for any of these things as I don't know where my mood will take me a day at a time - and that is beyond frustrating.  
I started the year by coming off my tablets - because they were making me ridiculously tired - even to the point of falling asleep at work - not a good look at all. Now people are pestering me to do all these things - but the bottom line is - I can't be bothered as I seriously don't know if I will get live to completing my lessons, or going abroad or getting a mortgage.
Absolutely horrendous.

Sunday, 11 January 2015

Efdemin - Parallaxis (Traumprinz's Over 2 The End Version)


Trentemøller - Always Something Better (DJ Tennis & Mind Against Remix)


Robert Babicz - Mercury Bells (Beta v3)

Morning all,

Been doing a bit of track buying today - and to my intense disappointment - this amazing tune by the Cologne producer is still not available for me to buy!

Such a fantastic track, ambient, atmospheric and chilled - it's a track that I've shared on my Soundcloud account some months ago with the hope that it'll get released but alas we still wait!!

Monday, 5 January 2015

A Difficult Circumstance...

That is how Oldham manager Lee Johnson has described the situation regarding the possibility of them signing convicted rapist Ched Evans. 

Hmmm. I can think of several other phases that would be more appropriate. 

It's a bit of a no-brainer. You don't want to be associated with a fucking rapist. Surely?

Of course it would not the first time that Oldham have signed a player with a criminal record - having signed Lee Hughes after he had been jailed for Death by dangerous driving. 

He needs a second chance, that's not in any doubt - however being given a second chance at a football club with the social responsibilities that that comes with that privilege is surely a step too far. 

Sunday, 4 January 2015

This is Beautiful! Katie Hopkins Gets Owned.

The Year Ahead

Well, here I am - on the settee here at the Surgery this evening with one more day off before I have to head back into work - and the one thing that comes to mind for the past year is one of achievement whilst struggling with the demons upstairs.

I have been wondering - sometimes aloud - what would be a good target to aim for - for the coming year - the DJing seems to have itself taken care of - certainly for the forseeable future - which in itself  is a remarkable personal achievement for myself - considering my confidence wasn't exactly great this time last year.

Outside of my usual hopes and dreams of getting a gig in London - which I am quietly confident is going to happen this year - the aim has to be get a Original Release signed up - which seems a long shot - however I do think that if I put my mind to it - there is nothing I can't do!

Bob Bob's Top 10 Tunes 2014 - #1 Hot Since 82 vs Joe T Vannelli feat. Csilla - The End (Sabb Remix)

Is it the best track of the year - probably not - is it the one that got people going in those sweating underground clubs - you bet it fucking did - whenever I played it or heard it - either in the bar, house parties or even at home on my iPhone, that amazing sample from Reflekt's Need To Feel Loved, just gave me goosebumps - this tune, Walking With Elephants and Pushing On, are probably the three tunes in this top 10 that I know I will keep on playing for the next year to 18 months and even then in my eyes - they will become classics, so they'll end up in my classics folder!

The moment I heard this tune, I knew I could throw it in a couple of BPMs down and it would have that chilled vibe about - a couple up - and it would be a fucking monster - the minute long breakdown being a great example of the tune's versatility!.

Bob Bob's Top 10 Tunes 2014 - #2 Kölsch - Cassiopeia feat. Gregor Schwellenbach

Bob Bob's Top 10 Tunes 2014 - #3 Ten Walls - Walking With Elephants

Bob Bob's Top 10 Tunes 2014 - #4 Clean Bandit - Rather Be ft. Jess Glynne

Bob Bob's Top 10 Tunes 2014 - #5 Duke Dumont - I Got U ft. Jax Jones

Bob Bob's Top 10 Tunes 2014 - #6 Avicii - Wake Me Up (PANG! Slow Things Down Mix)

Bob Bob's Top 10 Tunes 2014 - #7 Daniel Steinberg - Let Me Down (Tube & Berger Remix)

Bob Bob's Top 10 Tunes 2014 - Joint #8 Oliver $ & Jimi Jules - Pushing On

A slow burner this one, became fucking huge after the Ibiza season came to a close in the UK - though in my eyes the vocals have been somewhat sullied by an horrendous mashup that I heard being played on New Year's Eve after my set at Skuba.

Bob Bob's Top 10 Tunes 2014 - Joint #8 Klingande - Jubel (Nora En Pure Remix)

Was always my favourite remix out of the ones that was released - never played the Tube and Berger remix - which saddened me!

Bob Bob's Top 10 Tunes 2014 - Joint #10 Erik Hagleton - Pressure (Original Mix)

Particular favourite amongst my lot this past summer - that drop!

Bob Bob's Top 10 Tunes 2014 - Joint #10 Tapesh & Dayne S - How I Do

Saturday, 3 January 2015

Sobering Up

Fucking hell!

First gig of the year done this evening at Skuba in town, relatively quiet considering it's the day after people got absolutely cunted including yours truly - which moves me into announcing my intention to steer clear of the evil spirits for this coming month - a detox dare I say!

I've punished my body big time over the past couple of years, both with the booze and the drugs and this seems like a good time to put my body first and not my lips!!

Having orange juice was also quite refreshing tonight!!!

B x